The pressure I put on myself daily is astronomical
I feel the knots tighten in my stomach, whereupon the pH level is tantamount to battery acid. My boss gave me free rein to run the store alone, for the very first time. The anxiety hits its fulcrum point, but I talk myself down. I’ve had these unhelpful thoughts before. And the things I worried about, in truth, were never all that bad. The spectrum of responsibility I’ve been tasked with, hits like a ton of bricks. Especially when looking for an adult to help out in the situation, only to realize that I am said adult.
If my boss gave me the store for the day, it’s because they trust me. They see me, and know that I work hard. Very hard. My word is my bond, and my bond is unbreakable. It’s nice to have someone in a position of authority value me for who I am, and treat me like a real human being. Fancy that.
The pressure I put on myself daily is astronomical, but knowing that another person sees the value in my work, lessens that pressure a lot. It’s all muscle memory, right? The more I do something, the easier it becomes. After making it through an entire day as the captain of the proverbial ship, the pressure has turned itself into a diamond of great pride. Pride for a job well done.
In order to celebrate my success, I find myself wanting nothing more than to hang with my tribe after clocking out and locking up. The people that just “get me,” you know? #VibeTribe
Have you had one of those days, too? You may be inclined to partake in a sweet treat or two in the form of a cookie. Partake away, my friend! You deserve it as well! The best place to have an edible in my opinion, would be on the couch, with my friends. Sharing jokes and sharing stories. Just straight up vibing. You’ve worked hard, now time for some play.
The Canna Cocoa Cookie
INGREDIENTS
200 g/1 cup unsalted butter, softened
20 g /1T +1t Canna butter
135g/-2/3 cup white sugar
30 g/1 ounce dark chocolate, melted and cooled
1 large egg plus 1 yolk (reserve egg white for glaze)
10 ml/2 t vanilla
340g/2 1/2 cups/ all purpose flour
70g/ 3/4 cup cocoa powder
2.5 ml/ 1/2 t baking powder
2.5 ml / 1/2 t salt
Even just reading those aforementioned ingredients causes my mouth to begin positively watering, like an unfed garden. If you are so inclined, feel free to add an extra pinch of comfort to the proceedings.
The warm embrace of an edible, is like a comforting hug from a friend. I find myself oftentimes waxing nostalgic about my childhood, and longing for the past days of yore. One of the most joyous things to do ith said friends is to watch a favourite film from the past. We’d often spend our days getting together, while high as kites, to watch The Lord of the Rings Trilogy (Extended Editions of course), all in one sitting.
As children of the 90s, we would also have a particular predilection toward procuring copies of our favourite animated films. Chiefly among them, would often be the horrendously underappreciated 2000 DreamWorks joint, The Road To El Dorado. If you haven’t seen it before, do yourself the ultimate favour and check it out ASAP!
So get that oven preheated to 325F and enjoy the sugary comforts soon to come!
Mary-Jane